Essentially, I've stopped writing here. I looked back a year or so ago when I still posted every now and then, and I've come to the conclusion that I have become boring. I'm no longer the young, bright-eyed college student, excited to gain employment, eager to make friends, to make a difference. Ready to knock out college loans, ready to continue traveling the world, desperately eager to see where God's leading me.
Fast forward a year or so, and I've basically become your average boring girl-woman. I'm 23. I teach preschool (daycare, really. let's be honest) when I trained four years to become a real teacher. My constant gripes are about my job, money, and living. I'm trying to get a mortgage, forget about spending money traveling! I'm getting MARRIED this year, for heaven's sake. I must have lost my exciting-ness somewhere along the line.
Lately I've been buried beneath a mountain of HEAVY. This meaning, I feel unsettled in every sense of the word. My job isn't a keeper. I had to move myself and my houseful of furniture to a couple different basements. The only bit of settlement I'm getting is that my man and I are getting hitched, but that's still MONTHs away! How will I ever last? Somewhere underneath this mountain of stress and unsettlement, my formerly exciting self must be there, right? This is just a slump, I hope?
To be concluded... later... when I get interesting again :)
(by the way, I love this man an awful lot. he does make me so happy. can't November come any sooner?)
--One of my goals in the next few years is to get out of jobs that pay hourly. Hear that, salary? I'm coming for you. ...eventually.
--Seriously, people without school debt should not complain about money if they have any type of fulltime employment. If I can do it paying an extra $1000 a month, I'm pretty sure you will be okay.
--Apparently I've got $$$ on the mind. Rather unfortunate, since I'd rather be focusing on the fact that my family is moving AWAY this weekend and I'll be living alone :(
--I'm considering dropping all internet connection to this house. I'd rather pay off my debt ASAP then have a spiffy internet connection available 24/7. Oh cable internet, you will be dearly missed :/ On the bright side, McDonald's and the library can now look forward to seeing me much more often!
Everything is so darn expensive when you're a "grown up." Yeah, I know, I'm 21, it's about time I had to experience that. Now, I've been paying for a lot of my own caretaking for a while, but that was with the added bonus of being on my parents' insurance and the like. Now that I've graduated, I'm done with that. It's that awkward time period between graduation and finding employment. I call it the Summer of I-Better-Not-Get-Sick, because I surely have no insurance whatsoever.
Some of the expenses I've recently incurred that are much more costly without my parents' lovely insurance: --VISION: Purchasing contact lenses, and getting an eye exam done. Yikes. --MEDICAL: Getting a full physical so I can work this job I accepted. So I have to pay for this physical out of pocket, because I won't be on my OWN insurance until after I get working. Ugh. --DENTAL: After 21 years of going to the dentist twice a year, I skipped the family appointment this summer. Yeah. I can feel my teeth rotting out already.
Basically, my last two paychecks from the summer job will be put towards taking care of my insurance-less being. Good grief.