Essentially, I've stopped writing here.  I looked back a year or so ago when I still posted every now and then, and I've come to the conclusion that I have become boring.  I'm no longer the young, bright-eyed college student, excited to gain employment, eager to make friends, to make a difference.  Ready to knock out college loans, ready to continue traveling the world, desperately eager to see where God's leading me.

Fast forward a year or so, and I've basically become your average boring girl-woman.  I'm 23.  I teach preschool (daycare, really.  let's be honest)  when I trained four years to become a real teacher.  My constant gripes are about my job, money, and living.  I'm trying to get a mortgage, forget about spending money traveling! I'm getting MARRIED this year, for heaven's sake.  I must have lost my exciting-ness somewhere along the line.

Lately I've been buried beneath a mountain of HEAVY.  This meaning, I feel unsettled in every sense of the word.  My job isn't a keeper.  I had to move myself and my houseful of furniture to a couple different basements.  The only bit of settlement I'm getting is that my man and I are getting hitched, but that's still MONTHs away!  How will I ever last?  Somewhere underneath this mountain of stress and unsettlement, my formerly exciting self must be there, right?  This is just a slump, I hope?

To be concluded... later... when I get interesting again :)


(by the way, I love this man an awful lot.  he does make me so happy.  can't November come any sooner?)

--One of my goals in the next few years is to get out of jobs that pay hourly.  Hear that, salary?  I'm coming for you.  ...eventually. 

--Seriously, people without school debt should not complain about money if they have any type of fulltime employment.  If I can do it paying an extra $1000 a month, I'm pretty sure you will be okay.

--Apparently I've got $$$ on the mind.  Rather unfortunate, since I'd rather be focusing on the fact that my  family is moving AWAY this weekend and I'll be living alone :(

--I'm considering dropping all internet connection to this house.  I'd rather pay off my debt ASAP then have a spiffy internet connection available 24/7.  Oh cable internet, you will be dearly missed :/  On the bright side, McDonald's and the library can now look forward to seeing me much more often!

--Can I just not grow up yet?